A Permanent Shadow - Breakthrough

I walked on fire
I paid my dues
I did everything
That you asked me to
I watched your movies
I read all your books
I studied your secrets
Till you got me hooked

I came to you when I was at sea
I needed something good to happen to me
They said you could look right into my soul
And pull me out of the darkest hole

But I don't wanna be free
I just wanna be me
I don't wanna be free
I just wanna be me
I don't wanna be free
I just wanna be me
I don't wanna be free
I just wanna be

I need a breakthrough
Right here right now
I need to break through
But I don't know how
I need a breakthrough
To kill my former self
I need to break through
This is a cry for help

Day five out of six and I'm not feeling it
Someone got fixed, I'm not receiving it
Is it really the mother or the absent father
That always tear you asunder just like no other

I don't wanna be free
I just wanna be me
I don't wanna be free
I just wanna be

I need a breakthrough
Right here right now
I need to break through
But I don't know how
I need a breakthrough
To kill my former self
I need to break through
This is a cry for help

Do you recall the sweat lodge
People were turning blue
Choking to death all around us
But where was the selfhelp guru
Yeah where was the selfhelp guru

I spent my cash I gave all I got
I bought into your dream of eternal love
I abandoned anger, I abandoned fear
Yet I wonder still what am I doing here

I walked on fire, I burned my skin
My friends and family should have turned me in
I discovered your secrets, I burned all your books
On the seventh day I got off the hook

I need a breakthrough
Right here right now
I need to break through
But I don't know how
I need a breakthrough
To kill my former self
I need to break through
This is a cry for help

I need a breakthrough
I need a breakthrough
I need a breakthrough
I need a breakthrough
I need a breakthrough
This can no longer last
I need to break through
Help me forget my past